"i miss you" - dont u think the term of missing someone can actually be a sugestion? i mean, those feelings only came when u're lonely, and kinda need those fuzzy love vibe. if we didnt think or feel about those things, we wont be trapped in this phenomena of longing. after all, no one can predict whether u are feeling the right feeling. i cant tell for sure [ well i know i can, but i choose not to ], but i think 'missing someone or something' is a way to justify ur sense of being needed in return. dont u think??

i need to be independent. being a dependent person wears me out. somehow it makes me weaker, and i hate being weak... i cant let myself always depend on others feelings for me, or depend on whether they actually need me or not. people in some ways does need each other, but that doesnt mean they have to hang on to others completely. your independence in loving, in having a feeling, in being free is your own personal statisfaction. and no one in the world can take it from you. not even this slightest lie about missing someone so bad that it makes your world stop turning.

warn me if next time i spill out the word i miss u in this blog. i hate the feeling of dependent, but i'm still in the process of learning, so what the heck!!

hahahahahaha........